The Second Lady....

From car speeding to car crashes,

From love letters to ashes

In hindsight ,

The day we were flying that kite

Was that the day

I realised I liked one of

Prettiest men in sight?

I didn’t know what I was getting myself into,

Did you do this on purpose?

Why were you making me that nervous?

This love’s a hurdle I can’t get over,

What did you mean

When you said,

“I can’t come over”?

Suffocated by the secrecy,

I loved you ferociously,

The thread tying us together snapped instantly.

It was cute when it started-

This game of hide and seek

was fun till we parted

All’s a game to you

Was I one too?

Thought you were cute

And I was your muse

I would rather live in delusion

Than believe none of it was true...

From car speeding to car crashes,

From love letters to ashes,

I was a hypocrite and

you were my blindspot

You used to call me your baby

I never cared if I was your second lady.

Thousand fish in the park,

Why did you choose me?

Were the girls your age full of dignity?

Or was I just filled with stupidity ?

The blood and tears I spent into making

Something that was already breaking .

Meeting in the parking lot of the carnival,

Why was I ok with u

treating me no better

than an animal?

Your ability to hide me

At the back of the close twas

Admirable

The adrenaline in my veins

Did not last as long as the

Pain in my brain

Can we please stop playing this game?

How many times can we get together

Jus to break apart ?

I loved you like a piece of art

But you crushed me like a wine glass.

I don’t wanna eat anymore

Don’t tell my Mama,

She believes in Karma,

Had to be taken to the pharma

Cause hating myself is easier than having to believe

you never loved me.