Why didn't you go?

Love's a rose

Why didn’t you go?

I wanted to take it slow .

For you ,

I was a hoe

Why didn’t you listen

when I said no?

Can’t we go to the beginning?

Locking eyes at our apartment building

You chasing,

I appeasing,

The game was much too appealing...

How did that love grow to hate?

There was no checkmate

Just a lot on my plate,

I opened my gate,

Let you in my faith

You were just too late.

Cutting the cake,

In front of our lake

Were we always this fake?

We kissed mid-July

The love was futile

The butterflies,

Oh, the butterflies,

Were just too real that night

Sleeping in 2 different rooms, But I couldn’t lose

The touch of you

Knocking on your door

To you,

Was I a chore?

To do me

And then you threw me

All that you wanted was a fee

The red wine in our glasses,

We first met during classes,

The spilled blood on the floor

Matched the wine stains on your coat

Smashed my head against the door

Were we a fact or a lore?

You treated me like a whore

My throat sore,

Made me hate you to the core

Can’t go to a court

I knew the way

the case was

gonna get closed

He was the one that I chose

Why would the jury ignore

That I was the one

That chose to go?

My dad loved you for the money,

Why did you never call me "honey" ?

Mum’s a dummy,

Were you going to force me to marry you?

Grandpa gave me a clue

You made me blue

Our relationship was a fuse

That you blew

How was I supposed to tell my parents?

That the marriage wasn't happening

The scars were dampening

They thought of you as their son

I was just there for fun

The salt on the wounds burnt

The covering was transparent

What was going to happen

If they knew I was back on anti-depressants?

Fuck the power you had

Did it make you glad

That my dad was on the couch mad?

Curled up in the sheets sad

My head drowning in the sand

The touch of your hand

Was it planned?

Never gonna get back together

Nobody would believe.

That I didn’t ask for it

The pain that you knit

Was going to stick

This doesn't have a fix

The call history was dead

The love that you flexed

Was nothing but a dead end

Wanted to light myself

On fire

You made my situation

That dire

The trust fund that was yours

Was this your plan all along?

My dad killed himself

My mum thinks I am full of myself

How do I tell my parents

That their child was abused?

What if they think that you were

Wrongfully accused?

I don’t know if they would choose you or their vision of you

What would happen If I came running back to you?

Wouldn’t it be better to be abused

Than to be destitute?

What did you do to my mind?

Why was I that blind ?

Why did I listen to everything you said?

If you were bad to me

Now that you’re gone

Why am I still writing this song?

The pain is infinitely long

The ring that you gave me is nothing but

A piece of rock.

At the end ,

After everything we went though

I am still alone,

With nobody to phone,

You were the only one whom I thought I had known...